don’t often discuss or talk about my spiritual leanings on my blogs
because for the most part, think people make too much of it. I don’t
care much for people who shove their spiritual or religious bent in my
face and so I don’t do it to others. Even in passing. I am past the
years where I need to wear my beliefs on my sleeve and past the time in
my life where I feel the need to explain, justify or even label what my
spirituality is. When I think of God or a Higher Power, I think of
something feminine, distinctly womanly. Sometimes it is nature,
sometimes it life, sometimes it is a specific goddess, almost always
referred to as the "Goddess". It is, for me, what it is. And it is not
static. It is fluid and evolves as I evolve.
However, many years
ago, when I was searching for a power greater than myself, I was not so
sure. It was then when I found the Goddess. It was comforting and
empowering to know the spirit/energy/power that was out there running
the show wasn’t a wizened old, man with a long white beard or young man
whipped and nailed violently to a cross to die.
time in my life, I explored women’s spirituality. I identified for
years as a witch. I cast spells, maintained several altars in my home
and studied all manner of pagan religion, trying each on I suppose to
see how they fit. It was during this time that I discovered a new book
called Ariadne’s Thread written by Shekhinah Mountainwater. A foremother of the women’s spirituality movement, Shekhinah designed Ariadne’s Thread as a
workbook for students of the Goddess, it a book chock full of
information about goddesslore and exercises to open up your mind and
inspire creativity. I learned about the phases of a woman’s life and it
here that I first read about cronehood. Ariadne’s Thread helped to
change my world and shape my spirituality.
years later, when I was a contributing co-editor of a women’s
spirituality journal, I was able to spend time working with Shekhinah
doing an interview and a piece about her altar. I was honored to work
with this wise woman and grateful for the opportunity. I lost personal
touch with her in 2000 when I resigned from the magazine and underwent
my last spine surgery. However, I kept tabs on her through her
discussion list and sent periodic notes.
When Shekhinah was
diagnosed with cancer in 2005, I sent her a note and we kept in touch
sporadically. I watched as she struggled valiantly to keep a positive
attitude and share her real self with those on her discussion list.
morning I opened my e-mail to find Shekhinah had crossed over on
Saturday. I was sad and elated: sad for us and and elated that
Shekhinah was now on the the other side, perhaps beginning a new
And so today I have spent time today remembering what I
learned from Shekhinah; from her wisdom; from her knowledge. I thank
her for her willingness to share her knowledge, strength and humanity
with the world. Without her contributions, women’s spirituality would
not be as diverse or lush.
October 24, 1939 – August 11, 2007
"She changes everything she touches, and
everything she touches, changes".